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Posted by Bantuatha - September 25th, 2019

I hate it

I am fucking done being hiding like this shit @kryyNG

this is also foreshadowing too in April 1st

Okay for real I am already defeated and I need to make a confession

YES I fucked up as being pedo entire time I felt very very guilty and regretted, I've been on target on discord for months and months, keeping my mouth shut until Kryy post it about me last month, I wanted him to removed it but he wouldn't do it,So what happened next? after wank 0 is out I got banned and pissed off for it to be far I am sort of glad I am done with this drama and some shit, is all bullshit but too much story and details around

I made a deal with @narrowedblits that I will leave madness for a long time to fix up my after Hungry War is finished current taken over by @Jsoull I cannot be undone while the collab still ongoing I've suffered alot and it makes me wanna end my own life, Jackson fucking destroyed me and it leads me deeper bad path, and now this....defeated.

So what's happens now? well I need options and I am in serious danger of my own life, do I need to get arrested for being pedo? or move on until everything is forgotten in the past all of it is sucked and fucked up.

Well...I don't know how to feel about this but I don't want to end my own life, every time I wanted to do it I fear death I am weak and pathetic

I am useless 24 year old animator has NO jobs and stuck on the house since my birthday.... I wanted to end this awful war

I don't want to say it but I am a pretty messed up preson I am sorry for sexualized to minors and being jackass, I am sorry for being annoyed with everyone and cringy shit. And I am fucking sorry for being lair entire time end of story

I think that's about it, I can't remember much because I wanted all of it gone until it fixed it self for what I did.

Until then....see you around soon I'll be always watching until the grim reaper comes knocking on my door

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Moxiw 2019-09-25 18:25:27

@Shadz64 You'll soon eat those words, bro.

Bantuatha 2019-09-25 18:25:27

As you as you tagged him you scared him off, is over no more war that is done.

GabrielBarsch 2019-09-25 19:06:02

feelsBANman

Bantuatha 2019-09-25 19:06:02

Bannedtuatha was a joke in April 1st until Irony happened

Shadz64 2019-09-25 19:11:41

@Moxiw ok..

RussianMadcombist 2019-09-26 01:33:55

Maybe you should find a job.

astlari 2019-09-26 02:28:40

oofies

Olechko24 2019-09-26 07:51:16

Stay strong, mate

CryptVoice 2019-09-26 12:27:50

Hang on man, don’t think about suicide!
everything will be fine.

Shadz64 2019-09-26 15:01:31

@Moxiw @Bantuatha eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee not really. idc atm

daskeboyy 2019-09-26 15:41:13

i've just talked to you in some ocasions and i never attempted to make fun of you in such ways, even though i'm related to the people you mentioned. I don't really know you, it's hard to discuss for me if you deserve the discord ban but i hope this helps you to find a better way in your life and also consider and get over your previous mistakes. Peace

SentryTurbo 2019-09-26 15:47:40

I absolutely agree with @DaskerKS , this is about the moment you should try and fix things. There's no point in coming back - your reputation has been completely ruined, you can try your best to fix it, but at this point it's just best you try and fix your real life problems. You can stay in the community with your name being related to terrible things, perhaps under a different alias, but seriously - you should try and fix the stuff that actually matters - the stuff that happens in the REAL WORLD.

Moxiw 2019-09-27 15:21:41

@SentryTurbo
you took the words right out of my mouth, well said.

Bu4jEnke3 2019-09-28 08:09:22

Open your house door and windows. Go outside. Feel the real life, and stop the virtual. You are 24 years old.

Bantuatha 2019-09-28 08:09:22

I have been going out often but only every Tuesday with my mom's day off.

ApexHD 2019-09-29 16:25:17

look i know im late but still dont think about the bad stuff and think of the good side, dont think about deppresion, the easy way out try to sort your life out, find help and try to make some friends and get a job

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